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Dreams -- Prophetic Premonitions or Internalized Intuition?

We've all had it happen at least once in our lives. In the midst of our slumber we have the most absurb dream of our lives. It leaves you pondering about it. You google the meaning behind it. You dial friends to consult them to see if they can decipher the hidden meaning. Sometimes you'll come to a conclusion that makes sense and go with it. Then it happens. You dream your boyfriend leaves you and BAM, it happens the next day. Are you psychic? Maybe, or it could just be the fact that you analyze your surroundings better than you know it.

Women tend to have more outrageous dreams than men. We usually have dreams that appear to be prophetic visions. You may be arguing at this point that you may actually be psychic. We'll come to that point later on. Let me use myself as an example. Many times before the demise of my relationship I will have dreams that upset me or seem impossible. I would ignore them and realize a couple of days later that it comes true. My first reaction is to think I'm psychic. Awesome! I can find missing people and save the world! The truth? I'm very good at perceiving the actions and emotions of others. I would pick up on the slightest of details. Would I discuss them with others? No, because I believe that I am probably over analyzing the situation. So do I go to sleep at night and wake up having a "prophetic vision"? No, the dreams I have are just my perceptions shown to me in clear visual form. It is like your brain screaming "hey stupid! Don't you see what is happening? Wake up and smell the roses!"

So why does it seem like women have more of these "psychic premonitions"? It is because woman are inherently better at reading body language than men are. It is hard to tell a lie via body language so a person's true intentions are revealed. Women however are also stubborn, so they internalized their thoughts until they dream about it. The result is viola, your vivid dreams. So next time you have a dream about something serious, its not without rhyme or reason, its the fact you perceive the situation, sleep on it, and manifest it.

Note: If you do have these dreams, don't just go and pull a Lorena Bobbitt. Calm down and think the plausibility of the situation.

jumbled up thoughts

I have so many topics I want to discuss that I often have internal monologues with myself. This happens the most on my way to work, I get a chance to reflect on my days and just work things out. In any case, here are my thoughts of the week:

OcotMom -- I agree with the masses, this woman should have her tubes tied or something if she tries to do invitro again. Her children deserve the opportunity to be brought up in a normal house hold with a stable environment. I can only imagine the health challenges they will have to overcome because of their so called "caring" mom. She is wasting tax payer's money to fulfill her own selfish needs. I would support her all the way if she can afford to take care of all her children but the truth of the matter is, she can't. I feel sorry for her poor family.

Valentine's Day -- This holiday commonly sends one of two emotions through most people: absolute joy or maddening sadness. Being unattached, I cannot go with the feeling of absolute joy, but neither will I go with the feeling of maddening sadness. I am content and happy at this point of my life. I feel as if I have reached a point in my life where I am happy being by myself. If you think about it, you are never truly by yourself, you have friends and family that love you and are there for you. I used to considered myself to be a "serial monoganist" (one who always has to be in a relationship), but I'm glad I am comfortable with my current situation. I believe to be happy in a relationship, you cannot consider your significant other the one that completes you. They should be the one that compliments you and brings out the best in you, not the one that you cannot live without. So single people out there, don't fret. Once you love yourself, love will find you. To all the couples, have fun getting reservations on valentine's day.

Dull people -- Being that my main source of deep intellectual conversation has moved miles and miles away from me, I have tried to expand my horizons by talking to others about subjects we can debate about. My current results are unflattering. I haven't tried this discourse with everyone I know, so don't feel offended if you think you're one of my failed attempts. Many a times I've tried to bring up a hot topic, hoping to spur an enlightening conversation about said topic. Most of my replies have resulted in "lol" or "yeah..no shit..i agree with you." This infuriates me. (by the way, I hate talking about celebrities' lives. Cause honestly, who gives a sh*t).

Myself -- I feel as though I am at a part of my life where I am looking to expand my horizons and fulfull my karmic meter. I take various classes to fulfill that insatiable void in my life where I want to do something new and exciting. In college I always had a yearly show where I perform on stage and I miss that. Maybe I should trapeze? do silks? ballroom dance? Whatever the case, I am still trying to find my niche. Regarding my karmic meter, I feel the need to help others. Whether it be through volunteer work or the pay it forward method, it makes me happy seeing that I can make others smile. I even considered going back to school to do what I really want to do. Maybe I will do that on the side, I need to plan my time better. So the other ways I make myself happy? Going to the gym and working out gives me that wonderful feeling of accomplishment. As soon as I leave the gym my happiness meter jumps +20pts. I have also taken to reading various types of books. Human nature, biographies, scifi, etc, you name it, I probably have dealt with the genre. For those of you who don't read, I highly recommend it. It will expand your mind and maybe even change the way you precieve the world.

Another note -- in memory of someone I cared about, I will be doing the revlon run/walk on May 2nd in NYC. If you will either pledge a donation or join me in the race it will be greatly appreciated. All proceeds go towards the fight against cancer. Here is the link to my donation page:

https://www.revlonrunwalk.com/ny/secure/mywebpage.cfm?pID=472609

Thanks in advance if you do decide to contribute or join. All donations are tax deductible.

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